Bye bye love.

Been loving you for 32 months,
And counting...

I can't go to sleep every night,
Until I see that you've logged off.
Cos I can't bear the thought,
Of missing out on the chance of talking to you.

Yet at the same time,
I know I'll never dare to talk to you.

What can I do to make you see,
Loving you isn't a sin,
Coz I just wanna be your Bin.

I've learned how to survive without you by my side,
But I haven't learned how to stop loving you.

And I hope I'll never learn.

I've finally decided to accept the fact,
That it no longer matters what I write,
Or say to you.

Because you don't love me anymore.

You have no idea,
How much it hurts for me,
To tell the person I love the most in this world,
Not to call anymore.

Yet,
I know I can never be your friend,
Because I will always love you.

I missed you very much today.

Please say you'll be my Goddess,
And let me worship you.

You once said that you'll always love me.

I'm not asking for much now,
I'm not gonna ask for the world.
All I want is for you,
To believe in me,
Just this once.

Let me love you once again.

I remember all the times,
I tried so hard to make myself fall for others,
In the end,
I realized that the person I end up hurting most,
Is myself.

I'll be good this time,
I swear,
Because I never want to go through the pain,
Of losing you again.

She doesn't know how much I love her.
She has no freaking clue.

Do you ever go through the archives?
This blog is filled with letters that I wrote to you.

Pieces of my heart that I had hoped to share with you.

I know I was so wrong, I know.

I'm sorry I never loved you the way you should be loved.
I'm sorry I said all those things I shouldn't have said.
I'm sorry all those times I lost my temper at you.
I'm sorry I never gave you your due respect.
I'm sorry all those times I didn't care.
I'm sorry I was so childish.
I'm sorry I, I...

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I took you for granted.

I'm truly sorry.

If only you can see these tears in my eyes,
You'll know that they are meant for you.

I love you.

I'm begging for a chance to love you once more.
If only you would be so kind,
As to turn your head around for one last time.
Take one more look at the person who loves you the most.

I'll never let you be hurt again,
Believe me.

You should just let me love you.

The answer,
To a question,
You may or may not have thought about asking,
Is:

"Always."

I had a dream.

I unfolded this little piece of paper,
And there,
In my very own handwriting,
Were the words:

I knew that I once loved you,
Because I still do.

I couldn't remember who the note was meant for.
Or maybe it wasn't shown in my dream,
I'm not sure.

I'm just wondering,
What the unconscious is trying to tell the conscious.

Let me tell you a secret.

I feel like a failure.
I think I am one.
I've never felt so pathetic,
Helpless or lost in my entire life.

I want to quit right now.
Then you can see me,
Working in some low-paying job again.

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

She Will Be Loved.

There's no one to blame but myself,
For holding on to pieces of a broken dream.

Foolish heart.

I don't know what I want anymore.

I don't understand why,
See it's burning me to hold onto this.
I know this is something I gotta do,
But that don't mean I want to.
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you...
I just,
I feel like this is coming to an end.
And it's better for me to let it go now,
Than hold on and hurt you.
I gotta let it burn...

It's gonna burn for me to say this,
But it's comin from my heart.
It's been a long time coming,
But we done been fell apart.
Really wanna work this out,
But I don't think you're gonna change.
I do but you don't,
Think it's best we go our separate ways.
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship.
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby.
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with,
I think that you should let it burn...

When your feeling ain't the same,
And your body don't want to,
But you know gotta let it go
Cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to...
Even though this might bruise you,
Let it burn...
Let it burn...
Gotta let it burn...

Deep down you know it's best for yourself,
But you hate the thought of her being with someone else,
But you know that it's over,
We know that it's through.
Let it burn...
Let it burn...
Gotta let it burn...

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to,
Got somebody here but I want you.
Cause the feelin ain't the same,
Find myself callin' her your name.
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel,
I know I made a mistake.
Now it's too late,
I know she ain't comin back.
What I gotta do now,
To get my shorty back?
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh...
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do,
Without my booo.
You've been gone for too long,
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours,
Imma be burnin' till you return!

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that,
I need to move on,
On the other side I wanna break down and cry.
Oooooo I'm twisted,
Cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on,
On the other side I wanna break down and cry.
Ooo Ooo Ooo Ooo Ooo Oo Oo Oo...
Do you feel me burnin'...
Ooo Ooo Ooo Ooo Ooo Oo...
So many days so many hours,
I'm still burnin' till' you return...

Burn

You've got to be kidding.
You looked so good in your new picture,
I could hardly breathe when I first saw it.

I want to be close to you,
Want to hold you tight in my arms,
And never ever want to let you go.

Do you know,
That I'm crazy about you?
I want to spend the rest of my life with you,
And please say one day you'll feel the same too.

I'm so proud of you today.

Words can't express how I feel tonight.
I don't know if you still care,
Or even think about the times we used to share.

If only I can fall asleep with you tonight.

Nette,
I love You.
I always will.

Just because I mention other people on my blog,
That doesn't mean I have any special interest in them.

If you think that you are so easily replaced,
You've got to be kidding.
No-one else even comes close.

It doesn't matter if you still care,
But I always will.

I love You.
And that's all I want to say tonight.

It breaks my heart everytime I think of you.
Yet,
I think about you every single minute of the day.

Need you bad.
Want you bad.

Nette,
I miss you.

And so it was the 13th yesterday.

The first 13th of the new year.
I miss You my love.

I called her.
Secretly hoping that we can make things right.
But she says never to call again.

I'll admit,
My heart is aching right now.
But somehow,
She was never mine to lose in the first place.

Come what may,
She'll always have permanent residency in my heart.

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